Letter To a Friend
Saturday, November 26th, 2005
I am writing to say I am sorry for ignoring you.
Yeah… sometimes I can feel that you want to talk to me
But I keep on postponing – I’m just too busy, you know that…
And now it’s late at night. I’m too tired to share things with you.
You’ll always understand, right?
So I made another promise, ok, tomorrow morning!
And I do try to talk to you in the morning
But from day to day, I can only manage to tell you the same repetition of words
I guess you can see that I do that just because it’s the thing that I do in the morning
Or simply because I don’t want to bear that guilty feeling - since I’ve made you the promise
I do remember you…
But I guess you knew that if I don’t face any difficulties, I won’t remember you that much
I do say thank you for all the things that you give me…
But I guess you knew that it’s not from the heart
And sometimes I realise that I am using you
I am using you to have all my wishes fulfilled
And I know you know that…
But you still there, calling me ‘a friend’…
Giving me a beautiful life
Providing me with everything I need
…
I really don’t know what to say.
Just as I am, full of regrets
I wrote you this letter.